An Open Letter to Readers & Bloggers

Dear Blog-Friends,

Over the last (I think) 3 years, I have enjoyed your company. Better said, because of you, I have had more courage and self-appreciation.

It is with deep regret that I sadly tell you...I am quitting blogging.

My life is very full now - my daughter, husband, brother, school, dogs, cats, house. I just don't have the time to dedicate to this blog.

I thank all of you for your help and support. Please feel free to comment or email me (if you put your email in a comment, I won't post the comment).

Be Well.

Peace

Double Bubble Toil & Trouble

OK, that isn't exact; it is what I used to say as a kid.

I hope everyone's Samhain was blessed and fruitful. I've decided not to write about mine. It was very personal this year. In today's entry, I'd like to write about other things going on in my (our) life.

To start with, Freya (daughter) has been renamed Parvati - the Indian Goddess of Perserverance.
Husband is now Rhian - I could not find a God of Endurance, so, I shortened the female form, Rhiannon.
I am still Ligeia.

Early this year, Parvati "got into trouble". Her dues paying is long, drawn out, and necessary. In a matter of months, her dues will be paid in full and she can place this "episode" and all she has learned into her Book of Life.

When Parvati moved here, Rhian and I were overjoyed - we still are. We had our "honeymoon" phase with her, which turned to the reality phase; now, we are in the everyday phase - a good place to be. Parvati has showed marked improvement in thinking, acting, responsibility and daily relaxing.

The relationship between Rhian and I is still at a standstill. To some, this would seem fine; to me, it is not. I grow and change everyday - we all do. I refuse to be stagnant in all parts of my life. Rhian finds stagnation wonderful. It is passed stability - which is nice and necessary! I realized over a year ago Rhian is depressed. He refuses to change anything about how he lives (or doesn't live) his life. I cannot be this way. My solution - because I do love and care for him - is to work with and around this, while still being my own person. I had problems with this for a while; putting more Faith in my life everyday is helping tremendously! Our relationship is not adversely affecting Parvati - this is important!

I am again working part-time. The last "permanent" job is now a "contract" (easiest way to explain) with little prospect of continuing past January. This is fine with me. The part-time gig is something I've done before and know I can do. It is not my dream job and the pay is minimal; but, it is something and fills the gaps until something more profitable comes along.

In January, when one aspect ends, another will re-begin. I will return to University. I am thrilled beyond belief! It will, again, be part-time; but it gets me closer to my goal! I have the same adviser (Thank you) and it is the same campus, but none of the people I knew 2 years ago will be there. This will make for interesting alliances!

Spiritual stuff next time.

Peace

How to Play Nice

Felt I needed to share this today. Yes, I know, it is Mabon. You will get more on my celebration tomorrow.

From About.com: (paraphrasing)

• If you are upset with someone, remember, you could be found out and then need to explain.
• Don't reprint lots of other blog entries without permission.
• Respond to comments.

Peace

Why I should stop...but don't

You'd think Themas would have finished doin' her thing by now, but, nope! We are still in a bit of a life 'n death struggle with the pantomime Princess Margaret...er, sorry, got a bit Python there.

We are still in a struggle for the well-being of Freya.

I read the ex's wife's blog about once a week. I can't handle every day; and the entries I do read, most make me want to throw up.

I should really stop reading. The reason I don't is that all the nonsense builds my case. Sad, actually.

I have to remember to do some deep breathing and ask for some courage before I willy-nilly logon to her blog. If not, things that make me so f***ing mad get my stomach churning and, thus, put my mind in a foul state.

I suppose it is a good thing that Freya's father has someone he can devote himself to and do things for that he would not devote himself to or do things for me. In other words, all those things I found important and he found unnecessary are suddenly right and necessary with her. And, yes, she knows this and, yes, she does flaunt it - "he wouldn't dare do this for the bio-mom...because she was undeserving". Yes, that is written in the history.

OK, enough, right?

Peace

Things are looking up - but the Pigeons are still flying

I'm thinking the Lammas, being harvest, could have been me harvesting all due me. But, then I think, I've been so thought-ful and attentive to myself and others, why would I be harvesting dramas?

My work is still angst ridden - too much secrecy and ass-hole-ness on the part of my "boss" which is wearing on more than just me at the office.

However, I am doing my job and very well, at that. And, although I have not been paid all due to me, I am getting paid most.

I am slowly working on a new template. I apologize for the flat, dry, no-life image.

One final note:

Thou craven dizzy-eyed clack-dish!

Today's Post

Spiritually, things are flat. With Lammas tomorrow, I'm hoping to rekindle some spark - even if the Moon is on the turn.

Work-wise, I'm having boss problems. You'd think I'd have found a way to not have this occur. Meditation helps.

Daughter-wise all is well!

What do you think of the template? I'm thinking it is much too pink.

I'm...

1. I'm working on finding a new template.
2. I'm hoping to catch up on my reading this weekend.
3. I'm learning new words because of this : " Thou ruttish fen-sucked dewberry!"

Ruttish - Lustful; libidinous

Fen (sucked) - Low land overflowed, or covered wholly or partially with water, but producing sedge, coarse grasses, or other aquatic plants; boggy land; moor; marsh (marsh-sucking)

Dewberry - a group of species closely related to the blackberries. They are small brambles with berries reminiscent of the raspberry, but are usually purple to black instead of red.

3. Translated: You lustful marsh-sucking berry!

What to Inform you of

I've been home, away, home, far away, home, close-away, home.

Horus has seen me and my loved ones safely through the adventures.

Psyche has allowed me to remember few dreams. Until 2 nights ago. Reliving an event in an alternate reality - odd and confusing.

I'm hoping to write more often. No promises.

I have, oddly, had time to read other blogs.

Peace

Where I be

More classes for new job

Just got internet access.

Merlot has taken over my brain. Must sleep.

Peace

And what makes you so special?

As seen on Autumn's Blog..

Here are the rules if you want to join in.
1) Go to Wikipedia
2) In the search box, type your birth month and day but not the year
3) List three events that happened on your birthday
4) List two important birthdays and one death
5) One holiday or observance (if any)

• 32-year-old Erik Weihenmayer, of Boulder, Colorado, becomes the first blind person to reach the summit of Mount Everest.
• George Lucas' film, Star Wars, is released, and becomes an instant hit.
• Scopes Trial: John T. Scopes is indicted for teaching Darwin's theory of evolution.

• Ralph Waldo Emerson, American essayist and philosopher born
• Igor Sikorsky, Russian inventor born
• Marie-Madeleine Pioche de la Vergne, comtesse de la Fayette, French writer passses

• Ancient Latvia - Urbanas Diena observed

What's yours?

Instant Karma?

So, yesterday, I was suppose to go to a "cattle call" for a job at a financial institution. I have been applying for jobs at this place for almost a year now. I have made follow-up calls, only to be told, "If we want to interview you, we will call you."

I didn't go.

I got dressed, printed my resume, drove downtown...I went to the bookstore instead.

Yes, I don't care for the retail job I have now; and, the pay 'sucks a duck'. But, I do have flexibility at the job - as long as I give enough notice, time off isn't a problem.

I just didn't go.

After an hour in the bookstore (I saw many, many lovely books!), I started home. Only 5 miles out and

KA-POP!

My front, left tire went flat.
There is a (now) funny story on that. If you want me to post it, just ask.
Let's just say a nice man stopped and changed my tire for me. He said I was too pretty to get dirty *flirt*
Husband arrived about 5 minutes after nice man left. He just smiled and said, "Of course he helped you - you are gorgeous." Yep, he wants something :)

I'm wondering, did my tire blow out because I didn't go to the cattle call and told husband I did? Or was it just time for the tire to go?

Off to the tire place today. whoo-pee

Peace & thanks for reading!

What I did on my Summer Vacation

OK, it wasn't Summer and it really wasn't a vacation.
I cannot reveal all that occurred, but I can tell you some.

I did get to see My Daughter. She got taller and more beautiful. She is going through a difficult time and was "thankful" (her word) that I was able to be with her through some of it. I was amazed that the 2 'adults' (using the term lightly) she lives did not speak with her at all about what to expect, what would probably happen, or even ask her how she was feeling through the whole thing. I mean, damn stupid people! Sorry...

On my flight back from seeing her, I 'met' a very nice man who - although said he was happily married - was trying to pick me up. That was a mixed bag of feelings - flattered that someone who wasn't too bad looking would say I had a "pretty face" and "wonderful laugh" - trepidation to not give him the wrong idea or to be stalked by him. It worked out OK. The most interesting thing was his telling me about Metaphysics. Which, I know nothing about, but now, wonder if I shouldn't find a book on it. From what he described, it would help me in my Spiritual quest. I'll let you know.

Another thing that happened - I bought me a lawyer. OK, I didn't really buy him, just gave him a few gagillion to get My Daughter where she belongs - with me! He agreed that I had bad representation the first time around; he also agreed that the ex's wife is not the one who should be having a say in how My Daughter is raised. Oh, and he 'knows' the 'right' people in the legal system down there.

So, all in all, it was a good week. I miss My Daughter and hate that I cannot save her from everything. I will get to see her next week again - so, blog lacking will occur.

I also had some interesting Spiritual 'things' happen. I'll save those for another post.

Peace

My Broom is now in the Shop

After being gone for a bit, my Broom is going to need a tune-up


Seriously, I've returned. I'll be posting this week. Anything in particular anyone want me to share?

Peace