An Open Letter to Readers & Bloggers

Dear Blog-Friends,

Over the last (I think) 3 years, I have enjoyed your company. Better said, because of you, I have had more courage and self-appreciation.

It is with deep regret that I sadly tell you...I am quitting blogging.

My life is very full now - my daughter, husband, brother, school, dogs, cats, house. I just don't have the time to dedicate to this blog.

I thank all of you for your help and support. Please feel free to comment or email me (if you put your email in a comment, I won't post the comment).

Be Well.

Peace

Why I should stop...but don't

You'd think Themas would have finished doin' her thing by now, but, nope! We are still in a bit of a life 'n death struggle with the pantomime Princess Margaret...er, sorry, got a bit Python there.

We are still in a struggle for the well-being of Freya.

I read the ex's wife's blog about once a week. I can't handle every day; and the entries I do read, most make me want to throw up.

I should really stop reading. The reason I don't is that all the nonsense builds my case. Sad, actually.

I have to remember to do some deep breathing and ask for some courage before I willy-nilly logon to her blog. If not, things that make me so f***ing mad get my stomach churning and, thus, put my mind in a foul state.

I suppose it is a good thing that Freya's father has someone he can devote himself to and do things for that he would not devote himself to or do things for me. In other words, all those things I found important and he found unnecessary are suddenly right and necessary with her. And, yes, she knows this and, yes, she does flaunt it - "he wouldn't dare do this for the bio-mom...because she was undeserving". Yes, that is written in the history.

OK, enough, right?

Peace

Days of Birth

Cake Courtesy of Here

At the risk of revealing my true identity (I feel like Batman :), I would like to announce that the anniversary of my birth occurs at the end of this week.

When I was a child, I was always thrilled when the Date would fall on the Friday before (US) Memorial Day - I was convinced this was a 3-Day Week-end just for me. Of course, as I got older, I still wanted that 3-Day Week-end, but, was disappointed that it wasn't just for me. Selfish? Of course!

I went through many years of not wanting to celebrate my birthday.

I love presents - at any time - and cake - who doesn't?! Looking back, I realize it was the person I was with that attributed to this - he would either forget the Date or decide to celebrate at a different time because he was busy. But, the biggest factor was that I did not feel worthy - of living another year.

Finding my Center, trusting myself, asking for help - from people, animals - and learning about the Goddess and God - trusting them - gave me the strength to continue and to look forward to the Date.

I will admit, I am disappointed when cards do not include money, when I hear, "Oh, was it? Gee", or "No one makes that cake anymore", and especially when there are no gifts under the Birthday tree. Selfish? Yep, still am.

This year, I got early Gifts, a card with a bookmark, and the Right Cake! The best gift this year, will be my Daughter moving into our home. This happens in less than a week. The excitement is mounting on our side. Having my Daughter as a late Anniversary of Birth present is the only present I will ever need.

Peace.

p.s. You can be sure, next year, I will want the cards, gifts, cake and money :)