For Peabody

Mr. Peabody is someone I look up to It isn't with envy or "school-girl" eyes, it is with respect and intrigue. I cannot allow his questions to go unanswered.

1. Previous experiences : I know that I'm the type of person to allow others to dictate what I do with my life. In my relationships with men, I have always put myself second and, as all but 2 have done, I was third in their life. It also seems that family matters and "have tos" take precedence.

2. In charge : I suppose I am in charge, even if I do not like what is happening. I can make my own decisions and my own changes. I just have to decide what price I wish to pay.

3. Blogging : It is a point of contention with 2 particular people in my life. They do not ask me not to blog, just ask why I do it so much. I also find that when I blog, I put myself "out there"; I get emotionally tied up and it bothers people. If I am going to continue to blog, I will have to keep my emotional self at bay.

I am an emotional person. It isn't drama - I don't contrive situations and I do not share things just to get sympathy. I am better now than I ever was - as far as keeping myself intact and controlled. Unfortunately, this is not who I truly am. I've got so many facets to myself, perhaps I should just pick another when I blog.