Wanted: New Head

No post yesterday - No post today

Migraine

Bleh.

Rejoice to the Heavens!

Thanks be to the Goddess and God - and anyone else out there.

Today my Daughter arrives.

Love and excitement exude.

Yet another moment when the English language fails to find the words to describe my Joy!

Peace

Making sense of Dreams

I've had a lot of dreams lately - A LOT. They are short dreams, and, I wake after each one. I'm not remembering them, which is driving me bonkers (well, OK, it is making me more bonkers than usual :)

I finally remembered a dream, the one from last night. I'm not going to share it, as it would mean absolutely nothing to you. I will share, though, highlights from a dream I had a few weeks ago when it was made semi-official that my Daughter would be moving in.

I asked Daughter if she wanted a particular food. She laughingly said, "Oh Mom, you don't know me very well, do you?" Then Patrick (my spouse) and my ex were laughing and having a good time and said, "You don't know her very well, do you?" Finally, Patrick and my ex's wife were talking and laughing and Patrick said, "I think they know her better than you." I ran out of the room, into Daughter's room and it was full of baby clothes. I woke screaming.

The next morning, I got it. I was/am afraid - afraid of being a bad Mom. I thanked the Goddess for boosting my courage to confront this. I also thanked her for the strength I found in myself to say, "Eh, I will be a good Mom."

Now, with only a few days left, I'm asking the God to keep reminding me why I need to get my house in shape for her arrival!

Peace.

Days of Birth

Cake Courtesy of Here

At the risk of revealing my true identity (I feel like Batman :), I would like to announce that the anniversary of my birth occurs at the end of this week.

When I was a child, I was always thrilled when the Date would fall on the Friday before (US) Memorial Day - I was convinced this was a 3-Day Week-end just for me. Of course, as I got older, I still wanted that 3-Day Week-end, but, was disappointed that it wasn't just for me. Selfish? Of course!

I went through many years of not wanting to celebrate my birthday.

I love presents - at any time - and cake - who doesn't?! Looking back, I realize it was the person I was with that attributed to this - he would either forget the Date or decide to celebrate at a different time because he was busy. But, the biggest factor was that I did not feel worthy - of living another year.

Finding my Center, trusting myself, asking for help - from people, animals - and learning about the Goddess and God - trusting them - gave me the strength to continue and to look forward to the Date.

I will admit, I am disappointed when cards do not include money, when I hear, "Oh, was it? Gee", or "No one makes that cake anymore", and especially when there are no gifts under the Birthday tree. Selfish? Yep, still am.

This year, I got early Gifts, a card with a bookmark, and the Right Cake! The best gift this year, will be my Daughter moving into our home. This happens in less than a week. The excitement is mounting on our side. Having my Daughter as a late Anniversary of Birth present is the only present I will ever need.

Peace.

p.s. You can be sure, next year, I will want the cards, gifts, cake and money :)

How excited can one circle get?

Very, if it comes to all of those in my circle.

I've managed to excite 3 blog friends, one long-time friend, one friend I made through my Brother, Bridgette, couple of college friends, my Spouse (who is now named Patrick), my Parents, and, gee, there two more people....oh, yes...Me & My Daughter.

Why you should ask? On the twenty-ninth day of this glorious month of May, my Daughter will be moving in with Patrick and I.

Yes, you read that correctly - MOVING IN. And, not for a short time, either. Until she graduates from high school - she can stay longer, if she likes.

The joy is just flowing through and around all of us.

This will mean a lot of interesting blogging, I'm sure.

Peace

Finding things

Some things to share

This is fun

This is informative

This is not politically correct but I want one!

Stuff to buy

Peace

Wheel of Life

When I first started learning and practicing my Religion, I would hang on every "read" of my Tarot or Bibliomancy. Now, I realize these are just tools to help me make decisions.

There was a time in my recent history when I relied on yearly predictions - not what would happen during the current year, but in what year something would happen. I learned faster than was comfortable for me that, depending on the daily decisions I make, the particulars of a coming year would change. However, the general "outline" of the year would be right on.

So, where am I going with all this? If you are still reading, you will find out :-)

In 2000, I read that my life would have difficult change, I would be separated from someone I loved and it would not be until 2002 that I'd start to "re-settle". That year, I was separated from my Daughter, I escaped an abusive situation, and my life was jumbled.

In 2002, I read that I would not be with the person most important to me - in fact, our relationship would be tested - I would learn more self-sufficiency, have a dramatic change in careers, and, in 2007-8, settle into my "true world".

Whoa! I have to wait 5 more years?! What in the Psyche is going on?!

I re-read my Cards, specifically when it came to my Daughter. Yep, struggle, patience, money, time. *sigh*

In 2002, my (step) Dad had a heart attack and stroke - I learned how to be calm in such a situation, as well as how to haul and stack wood and throw it into a wood-burner. I could not find a full-time job, and began something off-the-wall (cannot explain as I may expose myself). and, in early 2003, I was served with papers - my ex wanting full custody of my Daughter.

In 2004, I had yet another odd career change (similar to the one I'm going through now). The Tarot and Books did not change much. However, the 12th year in cycle (Chinese Year of the Pig) will be successful in relationships, love, career and money. Well, hoo-rah!

Here I am in 2007 - Year of the Pig - 12th year in their cycle - my career has changed and is so far successful, the relationship with my spouse is changing (for the better), and my Daughter will be where she belongs (finally!) this year.

I'm not sure there is a point to all this. I had the need to share.

Peace

Merriment Coming Soon

This last week has been full of surprises. Most good. Especially this one.

Now, don't break out the bubbly just yet BUT

Remember this post? Well, thanks be to Themis and Demeter, resolution is nearly complete.

I have it IN WRITING from my Child's father that, yes, Child will be here for her next school year AND for this coming full summer. Yep, I have "permission" to bring Child here the day after her last day of school for this year.

I can guarantee that, the day Child arrives, you will hear the most glorious music from the Heavens and Earth, Animals and Persephone, and Us.

Yes, I will keep you posted.

Peace & Joy!

It ain't me - It's everybody else!

I used to make fun of Christians who gave their problems to their God. Then, I realized that, for the intelligent people, this was just a way of allowing things/issues to take care of themselves. Yesterday's issue has been resolved, well, almost.

It seems that spouse (I have to find a pseudonym) was concerned because his mother received a call from someone looking for his 2nd-son (her grandson). What is odd is that neither one of them has heard from, seen, or talked to 2nd-son for over 15 years. Spouse asked me to contact 1st-son to see if he knew what may be happening. 1st-son said he had no clue. If he found out anything, he would let us know.

Spouse is concerned because his mother is now upset (oh, this is a story in itself) and, even though he has no contact with 2nd-son, he is still spouse's son. We don't stop caring about our kids just because we haven't seen them for a while. It is one of the reasons I married him.

I suggested to spouse that he 'give' his problem to his God. He gave me the "pbth" so I gave it to my Goddess. Spiritual help via proxy!

Peace

Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy. ~Leo Buscaglia

Something is not right with my spouse. I'm not sure what it is, though.
I usually do not worry about such things but, this morning, my spouse was unusually distant - as if spouse perceived I had done something "wrong".
I'm writing this here just to get it out.
Yes, I must go speak with my Goddess and God to help me work through this. I know they cannot fully resolve it, but they can give me a way to express what I feel and help in dealing with it.

Peace

Witty Quips

...I don't have one for today.

After a long weekend and re-bearing myself yesterday, I awoke today to a gorgeous Sunrise, Phoebe singing, new green Buds, and lanky Deer.

I thank Rah, Ryha, and Artemis for the Beauty they have given us!

Peace

Don't forget me while I'm gone

Because of new job, I have to go out of town for some training.
While I'm away, enjoy these inspirational thoughts.

You might be a Red-Neck Pagan

If you call the Quarters by invoking "Billy, Joe, Jim and Bob"....

If your favorite robe has the logo of a manufacturer of major farm equipment on the back....

If you call the Gods by hollerin' "Hey y'all, watch me!"....

If you've ever harvested ritual herbs with a weed-wacker....

If you've ever blessed chewing tobacco ....


Lightbulb Jokes

How many Gardnerian witches does it take to change a light bulb?

It's a third degree secret.
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How many Pagans does it take to change a lightbulb?

Six. One to change it, and five to sit around complaining that lightbulbs never burned out before those damned Christians came along.
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How many Discordians does it take to change a lightbulb?"

Blue fish Tuesday


Peace

FOWL!

Remember this post?

I did my very best not to count chickens before their hatching. I was just trusting that cooler heads would prevail.

They have, but, not.

So, how to relay this without giving too many details? I'll give it a go.

To make the transition of Child's arrival and entry into education easy, I made some phone calls and got my ducks in a row. Legal council stated yes, this was all good and, yes, we should do this as easy and simple as possible.

The other party's spouse would not have it that way.

I made a simple phone call to a person who thinks in black and white and was met with negativity. Adding to that were the rantings and berating by the spouse. Not only does this person not trust me, but they are convinced that I always lie. I would love to contact this person and state that I have proof the Earth is round, we are stuck here by Gravity, and the Sky is (generally) blue. But, of course, I'd be lying.

Today - with brain dripping out of my ears and eyes, due to migraine evil - I spoke with 2 of the 3 independent parties involved. Both agreed that what I did was correct and necessary; that what ex and their spouse did was definitely not smart - as a matter of fact (to quote) "not called for and not in the best interest of..." the Child. Relayed all the conversations to legal council. Legal council agreed and, even though not an independent party, agreed the situation was beyond cuckoo.

So, where does that leave us?

• With independent people still in agreement - Child is better here, with Us than there, with those turkeys.
• With legal council at the ready to do necessary paperwork.
• The other side scratching their heads because, after all, who could not like the ex's spouse - the person is so forgiving, and loving, and trusting.
• Child still caught in the middle of all this chicken scratch.

I'm just thankful that Child does not know (at least, I'm not telling her) what the adults are doing - whether good or bad.

Thanks for reading!

Peace

Blessed Beltane

One of my favorite blogs has posted some information about today's glorious Sabbat, too. I'm just adding to the mix. (btw, has anyone ever commented on how Sabbat is close to Sabbath....)

One of the best-known Celtic traditions for Beltane is the lighting of the Beltane fires. These huge fires were set to welcome back the sun for the light (summer) half of the year. All the hearth fires were extinguished on May Eve, and then they were relit the next day from the Beltane fires.

The fires were started with nine sacred woods, each with various magickal properties. People would gather and dance around the fires through the night, jumping over the flames to ensure a successful and prosperous summer.

• Birch - The Goddess, or female energy
• Oak - The God, or male energy
• Hazel - Knowledge and wisdom
• Rowan (Mountain Ash) - Life
• Hawthorne - Purity and fairy magick
• Willow - Death, sacred to Hecate
• Fir - Birth and rebirth
• Apple - Love and family
• Vine - Joy and happiness

Among the various symbols of Beltane, the Maypole is probably the most well known, even to non-Pagans.

On the surface, the tall Maypole is simply a phallic symbol to reflect the fertility of the season. But it originates with the ancient Irish story of the Bile Pole. The Bile Pole was a sacred tree of life that grew up through the Earth to join the Heavens above and the Otherworld beneath. A similar story to the the Norse tree, Yggdrasil.

One does not simply put up a Maypole at Beltane, the pole must be draped with ribbons and flowers, and it must be danced around. In the past, it was the young children who did the dancing. Long ribbons are attached to the top of the pole, usually in pastel Spring colours. Half the ribbons would be taken up by the boys, and the other half by the girls.

Note: They stopped the May Day celebration in our town - held by Christian Scandinavians. Why? Some "better" Christians thought it was too pornographic - scantily clad young girls dancing around a phallic symbol.

Oh, my....

Peace